I don't know about you but I am constantly jealous of other people. So often I wish I had what other people possess, like her cool phone, his nice job, her cute clothes, and the list goes on and on. Jealousy isn't something I'm proud of, but it is something we all feel. And if you try telling me you NEVER get jealous of ANYTHING or ANYONE, then you are simply lying to me and yourself.
But for me it isn't just physical items that I envy, I admire other people's drive and passion. Seeing other people accomplish tasks, reach their goals, or live their dreams is something I constantly wish I could do. But the thing is I CAN do those things. I CAN reach my goals. I CAN accomplish anything. However my laziness gets the best of me more than I'd like to admit. But not anymore.
Yesterday I was looking through Instagram and I saw a few of my friend's pictures showing their progress with their weight loss and their journey to being healthier. I sat there and thought, Wow, I wish I could do that. And then it hit me that I can do that. I CAN eat healthy. I CAN workout. I CAN live a healthy life.
I am so sick of putting things off because they seem too hard, or because I'm just too tired or lazy. I am tired of making excuses for why I can never finish anything. I am so good at planning things and creating check lists and putting good intentions into things but I fail every time it comes to the following through and executing my plans. But not anymore.
Yesterday was the beginning of an amazing journey to a new and improved me. I worked out with one of my roommates and came back to our apartment and ate a super taste and pretty healthy meal for dinner. I felt amazing, not only as a result of working out and eating well, but the fact that I did it.
I truly believe that I am the reason I struggle to accomplish things. I tell myself all the time that I can't do things, or that I'm tired and should just start tomorrow. I have never really believed in myself and that isn't something that can easily change overnight, but it is something I am trying to work on.
A wave of fear and doubt just flooded through me, and I am already telling myself that I can't do this. I will never look like that. I will forget to workout so what's the point. It's too expensive to eat healthy, you can't afford it, just give up. You're too tired to follow through with all your plans. Just sit around all day and waste your time on your computer. Netflix, Youtube, Facebook, they are way more fun than what you have planned.
Becoming the new and improved me is not going to be easy, it will definitely be a struggle, but I don't want to give up anymore. I don't want to end things before they ever really start. Instead I need to remind myself that I CAN do it. And I WILL do it. Who cares what others say or what my thoughts try to tell me. I am going to change my life for the best, and I won't let ANYTHING stand in my way.
So here is to this crazy journey towards becoming healthier, reaching goals and becoming new and improved.
Love Always,
xo Noelle
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